tau belum tentu mengerti

Seseorang yang melihat belum tentu mengerti
Seseorang yang mendengar belum tentu mengerti
Seseorang yang berbicara belum tentu mengerti
Mengapa?
Karena mereka ketika melihat hanya ingin sekedar tau tanpa ingin mengerti
Mereka yang mendengar hanya ingin membalas tanpa ingin mengerti
Mereka yang berbicara hanya berbicara tanpa ingin berpikir
Tidak inginkah melihat segala sesuatu dari segala sisi agar mengerti
Tidak inginkah mendengarkan meyeluruh agar mengerti
Tidak inginkah berbicara berpikir dahulu agar tidak ada yang terluka
May Allah Bless Us

Selfish?

Terkadang kita terlalu egois memikirkan perasaan kita  sendiri, sehingga kita menutup mata bahwa ada seseorang yang lebih menderita perasaannya. Dalam diam dia merasakan sakit hatinya sendiri sembari menghibur kita yang hanya merasakan sebagian kecil dari sakit yang di deritanya. May Allah Bless Ur Heart

Dear Self

Dear Self

What’s with all of these faces you put on? You’re always trying to make everyone think you’re happy or smart or independent or strong. You act as if the world will step on you if you don’t let it see you cry or, for once, say “no, I’m not okay”. You’re not okay.
All of the “I’m fine”s and “Don’t worry about me”s don’t go away; they build up. Eventually the pressure becomes so great that we can no longer hold it in and it gushes out in ugly, manic spurts. The person you try to hold on to when you were lying to everyone else becomes warped and unrecognizable.
Here lie the seeds of self-loathing. This is the beginning of a vicious cycle. 
I believe there are circumstances in which a group of pehaiople may expect you to be the “strong one” or the “happy one” and it’s not because they want to control you, it’s because they need you to be that person in order for them to identify themselves in your life.
We expect each other to be like characters in a tv show, playing archetypal roles consistently from week to week. Predictable. Safe. Comforting. It’s all a little too confronting when people change. It means that they might have to change, too. 
That doesn’t justify their actions and it doesn’t mean that it’s not okay to change. It only explains why people react the way that they do- they’re just afraid. But its not your job to keep people unafraid, only they can do that for themselves.
It’s okay to not be okay - just be sure to reinvent yourself in the process. Re-write your character. Re-adjust the circumstances and set new rules. People will eventually accept it and move on so let go of their expectations and just… be.
When it comes to sadness,  separate it from your identity and treat it as a visitor. Get to know him well, but get to know yourself better. Be more clever than your guest and memorize his routines so you can find balance. Make time for him and respect him- listen to what he has to say but keep your objectivity. Exercise, meditate, and, most importantly, let go of the idea that it’s stupid to be depressed.
You’re never going to be the person you pretend to be for anyone else. Stop hating yourself, already.
Sincerely,
Future you